Being new to ddlg, I find myself thinking back on my behavior in all my past relationships.And I start noticing things about myself back then. How I've never grown out of watching cartoons.How I absolutely start squealing and jumping for joy whenever I go into a toy store.How I love cordial cherries and squirming around in my seat as I suck the juices out of them.I love cute hair bows and make up a whole bunch. I always tend to lose interest in Men that don't seize the opportunities to dominate me even when I throw them out there.How I'm the only one who knows, until now, that if a man exercises real authority over me I crumble and melt and immediately become sweet and submissive.How I absolutely love to be spanked. And I don't like to take charge during sex. I want to be dominated. I don't want to have to worry about all the grown up stuff out there. Not all the time. It's so hard. But what makes me really sad is that the grown up me is 38 years old now.And the little me is just now emerging.Who's going to want little old me? I have stretch marks and loose skin from bearing children.And I'm not young and pretty like a 22 year old.But I'm a very very good girl with a little naughty streak.All I really want is it true Daddy Dom with strong eyes and real Authority who knows that I'M his little girl,and who will know exactly how to take care of me.I may never ever get that though.Maybe I'm too late.